Symbolistic White Walls

So, after 3 coats of white paint, I am officially moved into my new room! Same house, I just moved from the bigger room on the top floor, to the considerably smaller one.

I'm starting to find the advantages and disadvantages. For one, its smaller...so my couch doesn't fit in here. Even without the couch the room is incredibly cramped in comparison. On the upside to that, smaller means a cozier feel. I like the fact that my bed is surrounded by 2 full walls, and a little jog at the bottom. My door is open right now because it still kind of smells like paint. When the door is open, I can see outside... except its just the beach and the ocean, so all I really see is blackness and I feel like I'm on the wrong side of a two way mirror. That's a definite downside. Upside - only one window, which makes it easier to block out light, lol. Downside - I'm right at the top of the stairs. This is the first time in six months that I've ever locked the bottom door for my own mental peace. Side note, I've been watching a show filled with serial killers, death and gore. No wonder my imagination has taken over. Not sure where this fits into my scheme here, but my bedside table is on my left now. You'd think, being left handed, that it would be an advantage, but I don't think so. Mostly because when I'm laying down, but need to get something out of the drawer, I prop myself up. Because I'm turning to my left, that means I'm leaning on the left elbow, which leaves me to fetch things with my less dominant right hand. We will now classify this as a disadvantage.

Eventually, my brother is going to move his big entertainment unit upstairs, which doesn't fit my flatscreen in it... so I'll be moving it into my room and putting it on my big dresser. Upside - I'll definitely use it more often. Downside - I now have no place for my mirror, which allows me to have all my cosmetics in my bedroom instead of in the bathroom... which 3 people will now be sharing. I will have to cross that bridge when I come to it I suppose.

On the upside of my new favourite show which is filled with some unpleasant, previously mentioned factors... it's incredibly witty and stimulates my analytical skills. Bones is very well written, and the character development is unparalleled. The psychological aspect, partially because of the character development, has come to a whole new level as the show has progressed through the seasons. I must admit that I find these writers (or producers?) to be borderline genius with their subtleties, and their use of the extremes between intuition and pure logic. I feel challenged when I watch, because it is engaging and, despite the fact that I just used the word "watch", I don't find this to be a passive activity. Much like watching hockey for me, what I'm processing with my eyes is simply the tool I use in order to analyze and further understand what's really going on. "There is more to it than meets the eye"... hehe.

The holidays have been good to me this year. Finally some time to just forget about the constant timed obligations and just do whatever I want. I realize that I mentioned this in an earlier entry, and yes, I am living out my wish to "do whatever I want, whenever I want". It's lovely. While I thought this would be an opportunity to get out and see all the people who I don't normally see due to my hectic schedule... it has proven to be quite the opposite. Instead, I've been consumed by 3 seasons worth of Bones. Since I avoided obligating myself to any one activity, I am seeing through my actions that the outlet I needed definitely wasn't social. It was my need for mental stimulation. You can find me sitting on my couch, sometimes with my blanket, or sometimes with a tennis ball in my back (it's a great tool for releasing muscles)... completely immersed in a tv show. Constantly analyzing characters, situations, behaviour, criminal investigations... I'm in my own little heaven with the balance that this show has created. Thanks Bones :)

Suddenly I'm tired and must sleep, so that I can take full advantage of my workout in the morning. I hope everyone had a wonderful Christmas :)

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I was following the pack
all swallowed in their coats
with scarves of red tied ’round their throats
to keep their little heads
from fallin’ in the snow
And I turned ’round and there you go
And Michael, you would fall
and turn the white snow red as strawberries
in summertime